Lost In my world -

Thursday, July 10, 2008

today is the second day i went to school after school reopens..means i skip lesson for erm..2 days..i have no idea what i'm doing..i rely on him too much ..i lost all my directions and i don have motivations to study too..i'm serious every morning i wake up i felt tired i felt like skipping school..even if i'm in school i feel like going home and once the teacher is teaching i have no idea what he is crapping..i just stone throughout the lesson..how i wish you are still with me .. than i won't be wandering around alone..i wish that my phone will ring and there appears your picture and your assign tone..i saw him at cineleisure when i meet up with elaine and bryan for movie..he was all alone but was on the phone..i'm so scared that he is waiting for some other girl or he is talking to a new girl happily..i'll be there if nothing happens..you are moving on quite well..and yet i'm the one that is having phobia of committed into another relationship..i scare that once everything is fine and the next moment is sorry i'm tired..i can't take the blow anymore..so many times i tell myself "samantha you can do it..zhihong only what just treat it as my past bfs just forget it will be a piece of cake..". but things merely say easier than doing it..although i never contact him it doesn't mean i don miss him i cried in the night just because i miss him so much .. did you ever miss me when sometimes you went to the place we went together and do it together ? i can tell you i do.. i miss you zhihong..

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