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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

yawn yawn.. was chatting with jc the previous night and slept at 2 plus 3?than i woke up at 8am.. and gosh i have a test in the morning and i was late..hahaha .. i reach school at 9am the teacher was like i won't give you extra time i tell you ..whatever..but still i'm a smart kid that finish the test on time..went to lessons and than another test..gosh..so many test in a day and today's lesson is from 8am to 5pm..plus i'm going to woodlands to play ball ..was playing match and than suddenly a guy snatch my ball to spike of something.. he kinda fly over to me and than *bang* i was knock to the floor and i landed on my arm..so pain can .. i was lying there can't stand up..and the miracle thing is that they still continue playing.. hahaha .. that guy was like .. erm is me ar ?i bang one izzit ? i think so .. hahaha . sorry sorry..hahaa old uncle have STM..haha byebye have to rest my tiny arm

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Sunday, July 27, 2008

met uncle bryan and jc for a movie at town .. we suppose to meet at 3pm but than i'm late i reach there 3.30pm..hahaha but lucky they never ask me to kiss the tree .. hahaha we went to buy tickets for 5.25pm (the dark knight)..before the movie starts we head to collect bryan's watch and than head to far east ya kau to have toasted bread cause the beach justin work there..and we shop around.. bought popcorns, drinks and crispy chicken in to eat..and i finish the crispy chicken all by myself and uncle bryan was like wow this is the first time i see you finish your food..hahah the show duration is like 2 hours and 50 mins or something ? once the show finish we was like finally..and than we headed for dinner we ordered 2 dish and a soup..i share both of their rice..hahah i vomit it out after erm 15 mins or so cause it freaking full ..jc bought me a coke lollipop cause i pester him to buy for me on sat yet i never go to sentosa cause grounded from going home late on friday's club session..haha uncle bryan head to zouk and jc and i headed home..hahaha shall post a picture blog for friday once i get the pictures..it's alot of pictures ..

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Saturday, July 26, 2008

Thurday

yawn..was conferencing with jian cheng and elaine liu..we chat till 4 plus am.. hahah.. and stupid jian cheng went to smoke and he on his mp3..elaine and i was like wth where is the music come from..we are damn scare seriously..hahha

Friday

due to thruday's conferencing i can't wake up for school .. and i miss it..plus when i wake up mum give me a hard time for like no reason..(this is always what she do)haha..meet both elaine at bugis at 2.30pm and you know what i'm early and both of them were late..lady boss is late cause she got 2 huge pimple to conceal ..haha she treat us for lunch at the soup spoon..all of us cannot finish our soup..after that we went shopping at bugis street and than we headed to town to shop..found elaine a very sexy and stunning dress.. i wanted it too but than they only left 1 so i gave it to her.. hehe..waited for bryan to come and meet us after that we head to cineleisure to change and camwhore and we took a cab behind heeren..went we reach zouk we waited for uncle bryan, joel, justin, nate and xiao kang..justin is so funny he is afraid of a girl named joyce..cause there's one time she told him this...

*joyce - hello justin i like your veins..
*justin- erm..ok than i give it to you lo ...
*joyce-nah it's ok.. i like it on a guy..
*justin-ok..

-the next moment justin pull me beside and tell her that i'm his gf..hahaha

he ask me to stand beside him until joyce left..hahaha than i went to find john to dance and after zouk we went to spize for breakfast..ate half of the food pass it to uncle bryan to help me finish it all .. hahha than share cab with lady boss and home sweet home.. hahah

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Thursday, July 24, 2008

hmmm.. nothing really to blog this few days.. cause my stupid fever is like a switch..ON and OFF.. hahaha and my throat is like eeeeeeee.. so angry can ..i first day sound like a man 2nd day i sound like a kid..hahaha..byebye

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Sunday, July 20, 2008

gosh..i'm late again..luckily uncle bryan didn't want me to kiss the tree again..whahahaha ..meet uncle bryan, bryan, elaine and jian cheng at seah imm..than bryan and elaine was late so does jian cheng.. so uncle bryan and i waited for jian cheng to come and had lunch..when he came i'm still having my lunch and i can't finish i pour all the remaining rice to his plate..hahaha ..(thanks)
went in sentosa play ball as usual..reach there finding a nice spot to put the map and lie like a mermaid and i was the first one who lie on the map and i drag bryan's bag as a pillow and i hit my head hard and loud..his water bottle is right at the angle..have to work at 6pm later than i was kinda lazy and elaine don want me to go so i lie that i'm sick i can't go to work..and who the hell knows that i'm really sick after that..when we head to the mrt i went to hug vivo that pole and kiss it like the tree..haha so funny can..bryan, elaine, jian cheng and i went town..we headed to wisma sony ericsson service center to repair elaine's phone..and i was so happy that i found a seat and i was sitting beside jc and i lean back i knock my head against the glass..hip hip hurray..pain la..than we head far east for dinner and than a very fast shopping..than we board the bus to cineleisure and there goes again i hit my head at the bell there..jc was laughing non stop..irritating..haa this is my first time so urge to watch a movie and there's no slots for so many movies that is showing at the cinema..we went cathy to watch wedding daze..it's so hilarious i swear..i was coughing non stop but i still manage to LOL..haha while we were waiting for the time to pass we went to play dart and photo hunt..it's so funny when jc is there..after the movie we left the while we are walking out of the exit i almost fall..what a day for me..share cab with elaine and than home sweet home..update picture at the next post..

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Friday, July 18, 2008

went to school today..as usual late.. hahaha can't wake up..than my dearest cousin came over to school to fetch me home..and he gave me some cash he scare i don have money to eat..hehehe..what a nice cousin i have..but i told him i have enough..hehehe..reach home and take a nap before meeting boyfriend(huiyi) to collect my mum's lao po ping..hahaa..she bought it for my mum when she is having her holidays at hong kong..so sweet rite..that's y i love her more now..went to meet jia liang,yan ping,ah kiam and jian cheng and head to CCAB to play ball..i swear that jian cheng he have some hyper active sickness or something .. he don seems tired and keep jumping around..clap clap clap***** went to have dinner with them .. and that stupid ivan keep disturbing me ..we share a plate of noodles which cost us $4 and it's like mountain very scary..i make him eat more than half a plate.. hehehe i ate mouthful of jian cheng's fish ball noodle..jia liang and yan ping's fish ball soup and kang kong..hahaha..so sinful .. i hope i won't get fat and i don dare to sleep now that's y i'm blogging here..shall upload some unglam photos of ivan..funny.. and of cause scolded ah kiam so much that he give up..

stupid ivan 1 stupid ivan 2

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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

today went to play ball at woodlands with mable and lots of ppl that i know..haha .. so funny la .. they are nice peeps..quite sian oso cause everyone is snatching my ball .. hahaha i was watching them playing in the court..but nvm things are getting fun as mable being tied by jian cheng and the other uncle that i don remember his name..hahha i video it down..but due to mable voice is super sharp i don want to hurt everyone's ear drum so i don want to upload..hahaha..after playing ball was drinking water that irritating jian cheng hit my cheeks than i spit water at him ..too bad he hide quite fast..hahaha argh i will revenge on sat..beware..went to have dinner.ate roti prata.. and mr roti prata almost get out of my throat cause too full..someone don want to help me to finish the other half.. (argh) hahahhaa .. ciaos

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

i'm officially 20 .. hahaha and i had my new wish last night before the clock strike 12am..my new wish there's only one person know what it is..it is *A*** (secret) hahaha ..

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gosh .. i reach home at around erm 5 plus 6? goodness so early la and meeting uncle bryan at 1.30 if not i have to kiss the tree..and ya i did it..i went to kiss the tree .. please enjoy

i just late for 10 minutes la .. the fault goes to the MRT uncle he dont want to close the door..haa went sentosa with ..2 bryan a elaine and a samantha means myself .. haha saw zh at the beach lo ..very long never so close look at him already..but we find it weird somehow..was playing ball with him but he feel uneasy..than i don dare to walk close to him le .. but i peep at him as usual .. i'm like some pervert can but whatever this is the only chance i can see him..hee went to chalet first and than meeting both bryan and elaine at zouk..i thought zh will be there but nah he is attending wedding dinner..kinda down.. uncle bryan brought me a cake (thanks) i make a wish ..of cause it's obvious what i'm wishing for..i really hope it will come true..hee..than there's come drinking..i was seriously drunk yst night and keep vomiting ..uncle bryan send me home and to the lift..cause there's some drug addict at my place recently..

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

yawn yawn yawn.. skip school today again..no motivation again..waiting for huiyi(boyfriend) to come over my house to cut cake as she is going for holiday the next day..haa..so sweet going with her boyfriend i oso want..kinda envy..after we ate the cake we head out shopping and we had spageddies.. it remind me of him cause we sit that particular place before..hee and than time for zouk..meet elaine and bryan at ps and we took a cab down to find uncle bryan..and of cause we dance and drink like crazy..i was half gone i should say..we head to spice for breakfast ..seriously the food there is taste-less..cannot take it maybe i can cook better than them..

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

today is the second day i went to school after school reopens..means i skip lesson for erm..2 days..i have no idea what i'm doing..i rely on him too much ..i lost all my directions and i don have motivations to study too..i'm serious every morning i wake up i felt tired i felt like skipping school..even if i'm in school i feel like going home and once the teacher is teaching i have no idea what he is crapping..i just stone throughout the lesson..how i wish you are still with me .. than i won't be wandering around alone..i wish that my phone will ring and there appears your picture and your assign tone..i saw him at cineleisure when i meet up with elaine and bryan for movie..he was all alone but was on the phone..i'm so scared that he is waiting for some other girl or he is talking to a new girl happily..i'll be there if nothing happens..you are moving on quite well..and yet i'm the one that is having phobia of committed into another relationship..i scare that once everything is fine and the next moment is sorry i'm tired..i can't take the blow anymore..so many times i tell myself "samantha you can do it..zhihong only what just treat it as my past bfs just forget it will be a piece of cake..". but things merely say easier than doing it..although i never contact him it doesn't mean i don miss him i cried in the night just because i miss him so much .. did you ever miss me when sometimes you went to the place we went together and do it together ? i can tell you i do.. i miss you zhihong..

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today is a day for sentosa at first..cause the sun is like woo hooo.. nice.. but it start to drizzle..come and go the feeling is like oh gosh..no choice is winter now but there's no snow there's rain..how i wish it snow .. hee so i can build zhi hong the snow man..taaa daaaa ... haa everything was quite good and nice..but i don know why..when we are waiting for cab and he is calling his instructor canceling his driving lesson and he turn mono so call semi grumpy..talk to him like nod and shake..ask him izzit waited for too long then he lost his patience he just nod ..but we everything oso wait together de ar..is just that today is longer only what..after that we hop up the cab i'm feeling sleeply so i lie on your shoulder but this is the first time when i fall asleep you never touch touch my head de..and when we reached fish and co and just hit my leg to wake me up instead of calling me up like you always do..ok went in the lady say have to wait for 30 mins as it's full hse..and you know what..you say ya thanks who say no ppl de no need to wait for so long now full house..i oso don't know what..when we always have our meal there we got wait before meh..never rite..pig you..then you walk away while saying what you want to eat have to wait for 30 mins so long..and i tell you we go to plaza singapura see what then eat what lo ..this is the only choice what there' s a sakea but i know you don't like so never say..then you are like nevermind la nevermind la wait then wait lo..and then you just walk straight leaving me behind walking along..zhi hong never leave me alone while he walk de..and you still ask me why give you the sad look..how not to dear everything is just fine before waiting for cab?after dinner hop up a cab head to your place again..in the cab feeling bad have difficulty in breathing but you like this how am i going to tell you so just breathe very loudly and hard..and why you so angry..i'm not acting i'm feeling bad what i really feel bad i can't breathe properly and i feel dizzy can't even really open my eyes ,my view is so blur and i'm like going to faint already and i'm so weak of cause i can't really walk properly what..must you scold me "can you walk properly walk until so dead be lively can anot"..you think i don want meh you sound as i'm acting..i'm not i never act or lie to you de..after that i don even dare to talk to you..so i went to your room and rest..and you came in to sleep oso..after i decide to let you sleep and i leave myself again you are like a little kid rising out your hand for me ask me not to go..so i just tap you to sleep..set your alarm,place your jacket near you and your spects and phone so you just reach out and you can get it..after leaving you call me so silly so tired le still wanted to wait till i get to the cab le then hang up..i know you worried scare i no money to go home and stuff but oso no need to scold me rite.. good night dear

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finally it's 21th the friday..social night shop for so many things and prepare this and that all for this day..have to work at 9am to 1.45pm after that head to dear's hse..but he don't sound happy i also don know what had happen?after i reach no welcome hug *stingy* after that too tired went to sleep and he headed out to get his contact lens and i'm sleeping while waiting..suddenly someone hug me .... who's that..? is my zhi hong,he's back and give me a big big hug and feel that i'm quite hot so he quickly went to get the thermometer there goes samantha is having fever.."my pig is sick again so lousy"hee..after resting it's time to wakey and prepare for the function..bath , have lunch , dress up,hair do , make up and finally DONE..we flee there for the party..overall the thingy is ok,but sort of boring la..Oops..hee..but at least i have something in return..that is our picture..it's been long time ago since we had our pictures together..i'm happy really..after everything is over we head back to your place again and get a tub of ice cream..yum yum..went to bath have our ice cream and rest awhile..and then my pig is so so so tired he doze off very quickly..and i don want to disturb him and ask him to send me down so i decide to take cab myself..remembered he have flu but he didn't take the pills..so i went to eat the water and pills to feed him..cover him with blanket,set alarm for him and put his jacket near him if he feel cold he don't need to walk too far to get it..and of cause a good night and a goodbye kiss for my love and i went off..

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19 dec zhi hong book out as usual went to his place first..before we head out to get clothes for the 21st..let him read how i feel in my own little space..after he read it he tear and say sorry for being so bad those few days..it's ok dear..as long as you are back with me..hee silly dear we are having fun throughout the day.. rush rush rush to get the clothes the jeans and the colour combination..haa so funny my dear only say ahhhh i don know ar you decide..you decide what i wear what..haa so cute can..ok let's go on to 20th..20th is a public holiday..wanted to go sentosa but but but it's pouring like pig so we cancel..head to the pig's place again then have lunch with his family..what we ate? TIM SUM..those fattening food oh gosh all thanks to zhi hong keep stuff food to me..don want to eat will give the "faster eat if not i whack you"that kind of face .. haa after that when to find my dress and meet his friends..eh ok i admit i'm cork that day i didn't went to topshop,zara or mango .. too tired to think keep walking and walking..oops sorry dear..eh dear i''m not acting rich can is just that i don want you to pay for shoe..quite superstitious about boyfriend pay for shoe you know..although it will be fine if i pay you $1 but i don't want to take the risk not at all..you're too precious to lose..head back to your house to have mac for dinner..

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today i'm grumpy cause zhi hong nev message me the whole afternoon only after i text him heya pig eaten?..while i'm out to have my meal someone just bang into me and i was like keep staring at the person just feel shitty no matter what irritate my eye..zhi hong what am i to you? a person that can tolerate your grumpy-ness ? a person who let you throw your anger at? or a girlfriend that you use to dote? i really don't why after your field camp you just treat mi like a stranger..what have i done wrong ?or you just want to tone down?are you sure this is just tone down or you are not happy with me?like today actually wanted not to text you while i have been awake cause wanted to see will you text me anot but i think you won't so ya..i wanted to make the morning better but you don't seems happy after texting a few message you end with a orh ok lo ..what should i reply ? dear can i ask you if you are in my shoe what are you going to reply? i didn't reply anything and so i waited..but you don even text me?where is my zhi hong that always message me when i didn't text him the whole afternoon.."eh pig why the whole afternoon never message me..busy messaging tom rite?huh huh huh ?..i don't know if i'm thinking too much but this week no matter what i do you seems not happy and i'm like tickle your grumpy veins..what can i do to make you the same as the past??this week when you call me don't you think that you don even have things to talk to me?just keep quiet like yesterday u know what is the tone when you talk to me?what of cause tired la ask what stupid question ok la ok la what nothing to talk le ar then i go slp la ..ok la ok la bye bye bye bye..*hang up* not wanting you keep saying i miss you i love you i just want you to be the zhi hong i know i don't mind you keep laughing at me or tease me..or you just love me no more..if it's the matter you can just tell me it's ok..i rather get hurt then seeing you like this unhappy..i can't see you like this really it hurts me..been crying every night just didn't mention it to you..wanted to tell you this morning when i wake up and i cough there's a little of blood..i was thinking so what telling you i bet you will say stupid never take cough syrup then orh ok lo..i just want to know what happen this week..you know how much i miss you bet you like that you everyday oso say miss me oso don't know real anot..

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today been staying home the whole day..been listening to songs, walking around the house walking for zhihong to text me..i've been rely him too much..i don know why saturday and sunday been staying at home ..today zhihong been naughty i didn't remind him how much i love him and miss him yesterday night and he act as he has forget everything ask me to remind him ..of cause i gave him the full detail but after that feel dizzy after standing up from the sofa to the bed..text him to tell him and of cause get scolded by him but i know he mean well..he called me as usual every night without fail..hee but it seems he don have anything to talk to me we been keeping silent..wanted to act cute abit so he can scold me abit better then he keep quiet but he didn't after that his friend come and disturb him he scolded them and shouted at them to get out .. what happen dear ? make you so grumpy i know they irritated you but after scolding them must you talk to me like i'm the one irritated you?i did nothing dear was waiting for your reply the whole afternoon i know you're busy so i never blame you..i didn't blame you for that i know that's your character so ya..it's like so long you nev talk to me nicely like you always do..how long you didn't cover your mouth and tell me i miss you dear while your room mate is beside you?you know what dear while your at field camp don't you think that i never think of you..i went out all because of you this is the first year you celebrate christmas attached so i want to make it a memorable one..been thinking so many stuff what to get for you but you seems don't lack of anything too..so i wanted to get you a polo tee i bet you will charm me by wearing that ..already think of a plan lie to that i don have enough money to get you expensive stuff only can get you a plush..will hide it in your cupboard and will make footprints for you to find it yourself and some balloons..but the main suprise is on the christmas day itself..i can't accompany you on the afternoon till night due to work ..it doesn't mean that i will forget my beloved already plan to send you present by speedpost..contain log cakes, your present, christmas card and all my blessing to you..i'll try to make you a meal on the christmas eve not a promise but i will try.. hee .. LOVES dear .. good night

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